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14

Aug

The bun returns 😊. #totoro #blueeyedbun #minilop #bunniesofinstagram #mamasbun #studioghibli #myneighbortotoro

The bun returns 😊. #totoro #blueeyedbun #minilop #bunniesofinstagram #mamasbun #studioghibli #myneighbortotoro

The bun returns 😊. #totoro #blueeyedbun #minilop #bunniesofinstagram #mamasbun #studioghibli #myneighbortotoro

The bun returns 😊. #totoro #blueeyedbun #minilop #bunniesofinstagram #mamasbun #studioghibli #myneighbortotoro

08

Aug

The honey bug is out of surgery and waking up now. He could be home as early as Sunday but remains at #CatnipandCarrots for post-op treatment until then. He’s got his bhaluk and best friend, DJ Oats, to lean on and keep him company.

The honey bug is out of surgery and waking up now. He could be home as early as Sunday but remains at #CatnipandCarrots for post-op treatment until then. He’s got his bhaluk and best friend, DJ Oats, to lean on and keep him company.

07

Aug

This fearless little butter bun is going into surgery tomorrow. His foot isn’t healing so we had to make the difficult decision to amputate it. It wasn’t easy but it’s for the best, and he’ll still be perfect. #tototales #totoro #minilop #blaze #racingstripe #tbt

This fearless little butter bun is going into surgery tomorrow. His foot isn’t healing so we had to make the difficult decision to amputate it. It wasn’t easy but it’s for the best, and he’ll still be perfect. #tototales #totoro #minilop #blaze #racingstripe #tbt

29

Jul

I’m so sad

05

Jul

And she said, it depends, how masochistic are you?

23

Jun

bleacher report

And I miss the days of a life still permanent
Mourn the years before I got carried away
So now I’m staring at the interstate screaming at myself,

"Hey, I wanna get better!"

I didn’t know I was lonely ‘til I saw your face
I wanna get better, better, better, better,
I wanna get better
I didn’t know I was broken ‘til I wanted to change
I wanna get better, better, better, better,
I wanna get better

07

Jun

Depeche mode

Was it over all this while?

It was over a long time ago.

Sometimes the smiles in between fool you, but they too, fade.

17

May

Bill Nighy

I will be your girl in the cafe

30

Apr

Say something

Wow. It’s seriously such a small world.

Years ago, six years in fact, when I was still young and impressionable. Ok, so I’m still young, and only slightly less impressionable. But I digress. Back to February of 2008.

I was obsessed enough with Maroon 5 to stand in line on the corner of Prince and Greene for more than 12 hours in blistering, freezing, mini polar vortex cold just to see the band perform live for an Apple Store recording. I’d been a fan club member and was one of the first to find out about the secret show, and was one the first 10 people in line too. A line that would in hours stretch around the next few blocks.

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Standing/sitting/shivering for more than 12 hours but it was fully worth it. In that span of time, one of the band members came and chilled out with us. Documentary filmmakers were nearby and asked a few of us “What is your favorite part of New York City?” My answer: “Vendor food!” I stand by it. Adam Duritz of Counting Crows stopped in riding his black Escalade and bought, I don’t know, an iPod? (I would later go on to see him co-headline with Maroon 5 that same summer). I met George Lucas strolling around the corner, I also walked into Betsey Johnson (the store) during a lunch run and tried on what would become my prom dress too. And I made friends with the fellow hobos in line with me of course. So all-in-all, not a complete waste of life. I still remember how I waited for the sun to inch closer and closer to provide some warmth. It was that cold. But not a waste.

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However, when it struck 7, 7:30pm and the doors would soon open for the show and Apple was instead letting in random strangers who’d just pulled up—I was less of a happy camper. They were apparently radio show winners—whatever. I wanted to be in front row and it was apparent that wouldn’t happen. But it wasn’t the fault of the friendly Apple staffer that told me this. We struck up a conversation and I’d found out he was a musician too. So naturally—remember, younger, more impressionable— I said, “Really? Can I get an autograph?” He humored me and smiled genuinely, handing over his card with his signature on it. I said, “Now you can say you gave me your first autograph!” (Although it should really be the other way around) That last line I remember clearly. And I remember his name too. Ian Axel. Months later I looked him up on Myspace (yeah, Myspace was still very much in vogue) and heard him out. I have to say I didn’t think he was very good, but I thought there was something there. And he listed Ingrid Michaelson among his musician friends and partners so I thought that was pretty cool. Ingrid was fresh off her “Old Navy” ad fame featuring the song “The Way I Am” at the time. So if you are who you know, he was pretty cool. I’d since forgotten about him but never his name and that whole encounter or day, obviously. I mean, James Valentine of Maroon 5 also signed my shoe after the show ended.

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But this morning, I kept humming the song “Say Something” over and over again. I never really looked it up before. (You’re probably reading this and already have it figured it out) I’d been meaning to forever because I fell for it instantly. But only today I looked it up and finally, I saw the artist’s name. Ian Axel.

My jaw dropped. The same Ian Axel?

If it was, well, he looked a lot less like Malcolm Gladwell back then. And then, the detail that clicked. All his bios say he worked at the Apple store as a 20-something. It was definitely him. :)

What about the card you ask? It was six years ago, but I’m a bit of a hoarder, so the chances were not too bad. And I actually found it. Wow. That’s pretty neat. 

Now I can say he gave me his first autograph. image

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